I have thought about it, and have decided that looking back to the past year is nothing but a waste of energy. Revisiting scenes and emotions that almost broke me apart is not as tempting as it may seem. Although, I do agree that to move on is to learn from mistakes and experiences–good or bad–but if that learning process should entail a detailed rewind? Spare me.
So I choose to start 2013 with something along the lines of cliches such as ‘clean slate’, ‘blank canvass’, ‘fresh start’; I think I will be better off thinking that imbibing a renewed sense of take in life, career, and other aspects of being a human would help me get up and push. This is not about denial, and escaping ghosts from the past, but about focus on things that do matter. What only matters now, I believe, is the present.
I choose to live today. I choose to let go. I choose to lay off obsessing over the future that, more often than not, go astray. I choose to free myself from struggling for dreams that will remain dreams because reality is much stronger, palpable and tangible than fantasy. I choose to overcome my fear of risking–truly risking. I choose to prove myself worthy of what I deserve. I choose to move forward.